murkybubble
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posted May 21, 2003 10:35
my friend and i were at lunch, talking about ex-boyfriends, and we got on the subject of my last boyfriend before this current one. he's dating a friend of ours now. we were talking about his money problems and how he's always bitching about everything, and i was feeling honest so i told her some stuff about "illegal activities" in which he participated. i made it very clear that she could not tell anyone about this, and she agreed. anyway, she said something or other like "i can't believe he'd do something so dishonest" and i said "are you kidding, he's not an honest person. he's cheated on every girlfriend he's ever had." i realized too late what i had said... she realized that meant even his current girlfriend, our friend, and she tripped. she said she had to tell her, and i explained to her that she COULD NOT. that it would just cause pain, that he always does it once in the beginning of a relationship because he's stupid and likes to fuck things up for himself, but that after that he never does it again. i had discussed this with the other people who knew, previously... we had all agreed that telling her was a bad idea. and so she agreed too, that telling her would only cause pain.
so i sign onto livejournal today, and my ex has made a bunch of entries to the tune of "i love you, i'm so sorry, what i did was stupid but it's in the past, i'll never do it again..." and she has a bunch of entries like "i hate you, i hate my life, i hate everyone."
GODDAMMIT. why am i STUPID? i fucking thought i could trust her... i am pissed.
if my ex finds out it was me... oh DAMN am i in trouble. if they break up, i am gonna feel so bad... especially because if he DOESN'T find out it was me, he will come crying TO me, and i'll have to comfort him feeling all guilty...
SHIT SHIT SHIT.
*crawls into a hole to die*
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