I got the application for this Society of Automotive Engineers scholarship, and as I filled it out I got to the ACT score part. I got a 23 on the ACT, and that is good enough to get into the colleges I am thinking about going to. This scholarship requires that you get at least a 27. What the fuck is that? How can they decide I am not eligable for a scholarship on the basis of this one test? I know if I really wanted the scholarship, I'd just take the ACT again, but chances are I wouldn't get a 27, or I would be denied anyway. There goes 1,000 a year.

Black Expo. Hum. I'm getting higher than a 2.0 GPA, and I have to graduate from High School. All right. Oh shit, I'm not black so I don't get any of the money. Fuck reverse racism. Where is my "lazy white boy" scholarship?

21st Century Scholars. Hey, free tuition anywhere in Indiana? Great. Oh shit, my parents have jobs and pay taxes. I don't get any of this money because I have to pay full price for books and lunch. My parents are not rich at all. We have two 22 year olds living at home, and I am a 17 year old. My dad usually works over 12 hours a day to support our family. My sister is about to go to Grad school. But because my parents are still married, and the amount of money coming in is greater than the cost of books and lunch, I don't qualify for these either.

I was going through others at school, and I'm not getting money because I am not a dancer, I don't run track, and I actually have to get paid for doing work instead of wasting my precious time petting puppies at the animal shelter.

I hate to see what I will get for financial aide, once my brother and sister move out. It's tough being a middle class white boy.

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and yet, because i am not an albino eskimo who runs an organization where midget aids patients rescue baby seals, there's a big chance i won't get into the schools i want to go to.

I guess I could qualify for this one, but then everyone would think it is racist.


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"Hats off to the nun with the man hands."

and i really really hope i get into my first choice because i really don't want to go anywhere else.

of course it might help if i actually, like, filled out the application and stuff. 'cause it's due in, oh, 9 days.

first off..once you finish all the college stuff you feel a million times better than you did before. trust me. once january comes you'll feel much much much better.

I am currently a third year in college, and I've only taken out a total of $8,800 in loans. And yes, that's a fuckload. But it's smaller than everyone else's debt. If/ When you take out loans, make sure to look at interest rates, how fast you need to pay it back, etc. There's usually a lot of options so just look around.

And I dont know if your state offers a loan type called "work study". But if you're able to fill out the FAFSA form... sign up for work study. The government will pay for like $2,300 if you are willing to work at an on campus job (at the library, etc).

I don't know. That was a lot of rambling. But I hope that helped.